Masks

I went to the grocery store yesterday, and I wore my mask. Joanna made it for me. Wearing the mask outside is OK. When I got into the store, though, I felt like I was suffocating. I got a little panicky and had to calm myself down right there in the produce section. Claustrophobia took over. Spent five minutes by the berries to get myself together. Good thing I made a list. Otherwise, I would have run out of the store with only half of my list. 

Most people were really cool about shopping in masks and staying their distance. But it wasn't enough for one guy, who came down the aisles, claiming he needed six feet from all of us, and we needed to leave the aisle. I am not proud of it, but he was very obnoxious, and I snapped at him. A nice lady calmed me down. I lost my patience. 

I totally understand the need for a mask, and as time goes on, I'll get used to it, and some day I won't think about wearing it. But I'm not there yet. 
In this time of isolation, we've already lost actual physical contact. I've lived alone for most of my life, and I don't get much in the way of touch in the best of times. But I do miss hugs from my family. Now, with the masks, I can't see people's facial expressions, especially a random smile from a stranger. Everything is communicated through the eyes. We lose a little bit more of our humanity day by day. 

It is all for a good cause, keeping people healthy. I follow the rules, unlike these assholes who are protesting the stay at home shut down. I feel like banging my head on the table because they are so stupid. And the president supports them. 

Crude oil closed today at -37.63. It's unprecedented. All these people who hold contracts on the oil have to take delivery of it, and most people have no where to put it, so they're paying people to take it off of their hands. 

The stock market dropped 600 points. 

But the corona virus is all consuming. There are still so many questions about it. Can you get reinfected with it? Why doesn't everyone get very sick? those are a few of mine. 

I finally finished a detective novel. It took me weeks. That is because my head is in the news, as if I can do anything about it.